WHAT'S THE RUSH?

I was retired for three years before I genuinely learned to relax. I stayed busy doing creative things and helping others, so my time wasn't wasted, but I kept feeling as if something was missing. Then I got sick. It took a full month for me to recover. In that time I reappraised my life. Being sick forced me to slow down to a stand still for a bit. As I recovered, I didn't push myself to do anything. Once I was fully recovered I began saying no more often and guarded that special private time that was all mine. Now, two months later, I am at times overwhelmed by a strong sense of well being. Any complaints I have are so trivial that I wind up laughing when I voice them.

I am the most fortunate woman I know! There is no one in my life who has any authority to criticize me or what I do with my time. When I begin to criticize myself, I stop. Yup. I just stop. If I want to sit and do nothing but play games on the computer and "chill out" all day long, that's just fine. Being sick didn't cause me to awaken to any great deed I want to do. It caused me to see how much I had already done, appreciate my efforts, and offer myself a vacation for the rest of my life.

There's no hurry for anything at all. I'm not running for office. I'm not seeking any kind of promotion. My sense of well being isn't dependent upon anything. I simply feel well. It is enough. I'm enjoying it.